Release

Tonight at church we had Cardboard Testimonies.  I’ve been thinking about what I would write on my piece of cardboard for quite some time and yesterday I wrote down a phrase but it still didn’t quite seem to fit. This afternoon I used a different piece of cardboard and wrote: Selfish & on autopilot….more awake and inspired to love God’s kids.

I’ve been wrestling with this whole concept of being on autopilot…sleeping through life…choosing the easy path.

My housemate shared with me yesterday why she thinks TV is such an easy choice for her…it’s because it does the choosing.  The time of the shows is set, the next show is already there, it is always ready to entertain you and you don’t have to work to make it happen.  I think there are many things in my life that are like this and they all suck me in.

I go through phases of being in autopilot unfortunately rarely do I know that I am in autopilot until I’ve been released from it:
I know I am not in autopilot…
when I am inspired by something….
when I am creating something…
when I am engaged in something bigger than me…
when I have goals I’m working towards…
when I am not consumed by things that mean nothing  and fade away(going a little Ecclesiastical or Thoreau-ian on ya)

God has done it before in me…Jesus’ extravagant grace has released me from autopilot…and I am asking Him to do it again.